So I've returned once again into the realm of darkness. Depression has hit and I'm filled with frustration and guilt. I'm not doing well at uni and I can't seem to absorb anything I read. I feel like my creativity has been stifled and my passion for higher education, extinguished. Once I was full of hope for a brighter future but now there's nothing but misery and loss.

I tell myself to keep holding on and hope for the best, to fight against the tides of fury that rages inside my head. That one day I will see the sun again and become the person that I used to be. When that day comes I'll get a rush and become a better person, making up for all this time that I'm losing to my inner demons.

I still  don't know whats wrong with me or understand why I feel this way. I just wish these worries would go away and I can concentrate on achieving my goals and getting back my passion.

I sit here helpless hoping that expressing how I feel inside will somehow ease the sense of hollowness that i feel within my chest, the weakness of my legs the tremble of my fingers. I just want a way out of this and I need it soon.

two more solid weeks before the exams start and I can barely remember what I've learnt or understood this entire lecture. What's worrying is I don't understand anything I read and everytime I try, I get furstrated and give up.

Today I will try again, and today I will succeed.

i hope